‘Hiding my pregnancy from my family is best for everyone’

In most traditional and religious households, falling pregnant out of wedlock is taboo – and it’s usually women who face social scrutiny.

*Busiswa is a 24-year-old pregnant woman who lives in Johannesburg with her boyfriend. Her family lives in the Eastern Cape. She chose to hide her pregnancy from her family because she is scared of the outcome if they find out.
I come from a very traditional and religious family and falling pregnant outside marriage is already seen as taboo: you’re seen as a black sheep in the family who has committed an unforgivable sin.

I’m 24 years old and I just started working, but I am still treated like a child at home because I’m not yet married and I’m not allowed to interact with the opposite sex. Growing up as a young girl, you were always told to never sleep with boys, and to never move in with boyfriends. I have basically done all of that. That’s why I have chosen to keep my pregnancy a secret from my family. It’s for the best, because I’m still still kind of dependent on them and I know my financial struggles as well.

My parents are not well health-wise. My dad is diabetic and I don’t want to make his condition worse, and he’s already overprotective of me. He literally calls me everyday, tells me to look after myself, and ensure that no Jo’burg boys try to impregnate me. Every time he says that, that makes my stomach drop, because the first time he said that to me over the phone was literally after I had found out that I was pregnant. It destroys me every time I think about it. I feel like I have failed him and lying to him and telling him that I would never let any “Jo’burg boy” impregnate me is always difficult to mouth out.

My family abides by their tradition and religion and obviously black cultures and Christianity value virginity among women above everything else, So if you lose your virginity, then you’re no good to the family. What also stresses me out as well is that I am the first girl at home to fall pregnant. My older brother impregnated his girlfriend in his thirties and my family made it seem as if he committed an unimaginable crime and forced him into marrying the girl to make up for this “sin”. So you can already imagine what’s going to happen to me.

We live in a society where we as women, young and old, are expected to be perfect. As young black women, we are constantly faced with this pressure of pleasing our families. We have to prove how smart we are and, at the same time, prove how much we are saints in order for them to see whether we are “marriage material”. My biggest fear is them finding out before the time I intend to tell them, because I know they would overreact. I don’t know what I would do if they found out and I constantly think about it every single day. I fear them sanctioning me financially or disowning me and telling me to stay in Johannesburg and never copme back home. It’s scary and I am the one most scared of the scrutiny I am yet to face when I announce it, because no one will focus on my boyfriend. In the society we live in, it’s seen as okay for men to impregnate us but it’s not okay for us to fall pregnant. I don’t get the logic behind that.

I thought of aborting at first because aside from being broke, I told myself I was not ready for the scrutiny. I went as far as finding out where the cheapest place to do it would be. But then again, it also crossed my mind that I would still face public humiliation if I had done it and, who knows, it could have been worse than actually keeping the baby. It’s really tough being a young black pregnant woman. I feel like I am trapped in this cycle of oppression from social standards that are designated to please men and I wonder if we as women can ever be free from this cycle.

*Name has been changed

As told to Mihlali Ntsabo. Edited for brevity and clarity — The Daily Vox


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